Charlotte Moving On
Wow, belle just found out another friend got engaged. Three days ago, she was told that a cousin of hers got engaged.
Seems like it's the season for marriage. Well, she was kinda shocked at first but then again who was she to talk about love now? With hers poofing up into the air just awhile back! She knows it does takes a lot of effort to remain in one. Loving, caring, talking, doing things together, surprises here and there, and the list could go on and on. But all these have one thing in common - They have to be constant. Belle wonders if she's a Samantha after all when she thought she was a Charlotte. Belle hopes to find her prince charming to settle down and live comfortably. Then, they'll have kids and grow old together, and see them get married and settled. It does feel like a cycle, doesn't it?
She used to think that her relationship was the mightiest, strongest and God-sent, since she, among all friends had the longest partner ever. Perhaps her arrogance led herself to spiral down hill into the black hole of complacency, or the extreme of couple - narcissistic. Yeah, she's feeling miserable, miserable that they had to give up all the love in the world to fulfill their own selfishness. She wondered on how could a relationship sustain then without going through the cycle of consistent love? And if they do, would it be out of pure love or obligation?
Each time she listens to Henry Mancini's Moon River, the lyrics that goes, "where ever you're going, I'm going your way." To her, it meant both lovers, or someone who is out to see the world. She could never understand how someone could follow a perfect stranger till the end of time, till they lose themselves completely and embrace the other fully. She tends to have a lil Samantha in her, who calls out when she's about to enter into something deep. Something so deep that it might shake her core of stability. Then, Sam, who calls out to tell her about the many possibilities of not going into a hole, because the longer she digs, the deeper she goes.
And so, the hole did arrived some time back. What should belle do? Should she ignore Sam and enter the hole, work hard at digging it and hoping to find some treasures along the way?